hello, sweet thangs

good news!!!!
great news, actually.

we found an apartment!

that's right folks, you heard me right.

an apartment!

my first real apartment -
and it just so happens to be in new york city




oh, and here's some pictures i took the other day in central park ..



this little guy was sitting all alone on the ledge of the bridge (above).
i was rather drawn to him.


this really amused me - no one was dancing.


the famous walk in central park -
oh, these trees are so beautiful!


spring is starting to bloom in central park.


new york city horse carriage ..
looks kinda ironic with the taxi in the background.


how much is that doggie in the window?
woof, woof, the one with the cute, little tail.


absurd, haha ..


a restaurant in little italy


those flowers - little italy



so, there you have it, lovies.
i will take pictures of our new place as soon as possible -
but it will more than likely be a few weeks until i do so.
(we still have a few more payments to make).

hope everyone has a good night -
justin, his brother (michael)
and i are off to the middle eastern hookah bar.

love, xo.

any day now, i shall be released.

this is sort of a random note, but i really want to share this with you.

my grandma and i were talking the other night
about some things that had been bothering her lately.
particularly our family, and just people in general.
i told her about an incredible experience i had a few months ago.

before i get too deep into this, and you don't understand where i'm coming from,
i should tell you this is about my mother.
my experience was about her and about my past,
and maybe even about the future.
it was about me wanting to right all the wrongs.

one night, after i had some sort of breakdown just thinking about the past, i decided to write my mother a letter. i wrote, and wrote. unapologetically, harshly - as if i didn't care how she felt. i wrote what i had been needing to say for years. when i was done i felt relieved. it was as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders - quite literally. it's odd, because i've always been that person who really held onto hurt and grief. even since childhood, there was a lot of things i wasn't able to let go of. a lot of people have recommended me the letter writing thing - but it always seemed a bit cliche and out of character for me to do something like that.

after i told my grandma about the writing experience
i told her how important it was to be happy.
be happy with yourself, your life and the people in it.
i think my grandma really took in what i said -
which really makes me happy,
because she's a lot like me.

anyway - what i want to say to you is:
write a letter, if you must.
you might be able to identify with what i'm talking about -
and i can't promise it'll work for you,
but if it does, you'll be happy you wrote.
once you let go,
you allow yourself to be the best possible version of you.

i haven't felt the same since i wrote that letter.
in fact, this is the best i've felt in years.
the funny thing is,
i never sent it.

for the next week

i'll be living out of a suitcase.

that's right, darlings, i'm here.
it was a long, excruciating drive - but i'm here - in astoria, queens.
it's funny because the closer i got to the city,
the more my stomach seemed to knot up.
if you have a death wish of some sort, drive in nyc.
really, it's insane, as you can imagine.
right now it's rather gloomy and rainy,
but there still seems to be a lot of action going on outside.
we'll probably take it easy tonight and get going first thing in the morning.
i am very excited!
we have plans to go to chinatown - woot, woot!
i will do my best to take lots of fascinating pictures
and keep you updated on our adventures.



and so the apartment hunting begins!!!

holy monkey.

for the first time in my life i went to pottery barn.
everything was so beautiful - i can't believe i've never been there before.
they have a huge variety of things for every room of the house!
here's a few things i spotted that excited me beyond belief:

the farmhouse canopy bed, which happens to have a matching dresser, table and armoire


a fantastic blown glass table lamp


an extremely quirky reindeer lamp


these ridiculously cool drink dispensers


and this amazing monkey portait photography book - by Jill Greenberg


this book is going to be sitting on my coffee table very soon.